the soul felt it’s worth

It’s been a tough year.  So much heartache and division and strife.  It’s hard for me to wrap my head around all the pain.  I can’t understand young mamas dying, babies being taken away suddenly, talk of war, disease and illness to one after another of us, an aunt dying suddenly who looked so healthy and fine just a month ago.  My head spins with the difficulty of it all.  And yet, I look up.  I look up to to the Savior who reigns, to the God man who promises protection and love.  Whose love never fails.  And I beg him for healing of my own body and arms wrapping tight around those who are hurting.  And I’ve told him that I can’t, I can’t do one more day of the pain, the difficulty.  I’ve asked him why.  Why do you save one and take the other?

And I hear him whisper, baby I am so sorry that this world is broken.  I am weeping with you.  Your fight is not against flesh and blood, it’s against the powers of the dark world and the forces of evil.  My heart hurts with you.  I can’t give back what’s been taken from you but I can offer you the gift of myself.  I offer you peace and comfort and joy.  Baby, you weren’t made to carry such a load.  Come lay your head on my chest and let’s walk this road together.


And in his whispers, I cry out, what if it’s not enough?  What if you are not enough?  He gently lifts my head and says, but I am enough.  I am all you need. BELIEVE & TRUST.  You are seeking peace and joy in this world and you will never find out it out there.  Because peace and joy are not feelings, they are a person.  I AM the comfort you need, the peace you seek, the joy you so desperately want.  It looks different than what the world gives, but it so much better.

It’s about our souls.  Our souls feeling their worth.  He came as a baby in a manger, brought low to raise us up.  To fill us up.  We are seeking fulfillment in our spouses, in our churches, in our stuff, in our busyness and it will never be enough.  Only Jesus is enough.  HE alone can satisfy.

He alone is truth and light, power and might….

The truth is that God is our shield, our hero, he is our wrap around shield of protection.

He will fill you with more, blessings upon blessings heaped upon you and your children (Psalm 115, Passion)

The truth is Papa sent his SON to save us 

The truth is HE turns darkness into light, he promises us light 

The truth is HE loves us more than we could ever know 

How beautiful your eyes of worship, how lovely your voice in prayer ( Song of songs, Passion) 

Come with me through the archway of trust, together we will wage war in the lion’s den 

Together, always together, we will do it together, he will walk beside us 

It works much better if we go together, right…  

We cannot walk on water by ourselves 

He fills our souls with worth.  We walk next to him and let him love us.  That is the key, we have to let him love us.  We have to lay it at his feet.  In the words of Christy Nockels, baby you weren’t made to carry such a load, lay it down and we can watch it go. When we lay our lives at his feet, when we believe and trust, our hearts change, we change.  LET HIM LOVE YOU.  That is is his whole purpose.  The whole world lay in sin and error pining, pining for an answer.  And the baby came, the mighty god, the prince of peace.  He came as an answer to our darkness. He is the light of the world.

He calls you beloved.  He calls you beautiful.  He calls you worthy.  He loves every part of you.  He doesn’t care what your life looks like, he just wants you to let him love you.  To let him wrap his arms around you.  To hold you.  When we are held, when we believe in these promises, in this enormous love, our soul feels it’s worth and everything is made new.

This Christmas, my prayer is that we would allow ourselves to be held.  To be still.  To let his presence wrap around us and protect us.  The consuming fire that is our God will never leave us or forsake us, he provides all that we need.  He will fight for us, we need only to be still.

The baby appeared and the soul felt it’s worth.  The weary world rejoices! May we rejoice and be held this Christmas.  May we find joy and wonder in the baby who saves, who loves.

“I will be to her a wall of fire around her, declares the Lord, and I will be the glory within.” -Zechariah 2:5

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